exactly one month

I had surgery 1 month ago today...Dec 8th and I feel pretty good. I had somewhat of a rough night last night, but got thru it....they seem to get easier now that I know what to expect. Tried eggplant for dinner (no skin) and I'm not sure if it agreed with my very well. I've gotta keep trying so my diet doesn't remain so limited. One of the fun things about a new pouch. I was so used to eating everything & new what I would pay for later, but this is different and doesn't work like the other pouch so I have to be more careful. Chew chew chew...gotta love it!

side note: talked to Todd via IM this morning...they are setting sail today in the pouring rain...I'm scared & excited for him...praying God will watch over them and keep them safe and that this expedition will provide more information to help our environment...go get em tiger!

day to reflect

Today marks the day of my grandfathers 12 anniversary of his death from pancreatic cancer. I miss him so much but I also believe that he has been my guardian angel watching over me through all these surgeries. Pepe was a strong man with a powerful presence. I always wonder what it would be like for him to still be with us and to see my kids all grown up and to be ale to enjoy my sisters little ones.

My other half sets sail today on an amazing expedition of the North Atlantic Gyre. I'm so proud of him for doing this and I hope this will help take the next step in finding ways to clean and protect the earth. It's a once in a lifetime opportunity for him..I just hope he can handle the sea..he hates throwing up! So SP..safe journey hon..I'll be following you on your blog.

As for me..I'm hating not being able to eat what I want, but at least I'm putting on weight and I'm feeling pretty good..that's all I can ask for right now.

clot update

I saw the gyn surgeon today and was advised to not do anything right now for the blood clot. In a way it's good that it's on the left side and not the right. The left side has to travel through the kidney before heading to the lungs....the right side goes straight to the heart. I have to have another CT scan done in 3 mos to see if it has changed...if it hasn't we do nothing and move on...if it has I have to worry about it going to my lung and I will need to be on blood thinners or even have a device inserted to catch clots...crazy!!!!. According to the doctor I have a better chance of winning the lottery than the blood clot moving...i would say those are good odds. So we will see in 3 mos what my body has decided to do. With the grace of God it won't move.

cant sleep

Just up to intubate @ 2am and now can't sleep..too many thoughts racing thru my head. I'm scheduled to see another doctor tomorrow to make sure that the thrombosis in my left ovarian vein is ok. The CT scan I had in the hospital revealed this lovely detail. If it's not one thing, it's another. I'm praying that there is no treatment required..my body can't handle too much more. I'm happy to report that I've put on a few pounds and doing pretty good with the 4 hour schedule. Yesterday I only had 2 episodes of excruciating pain at the 3.5 mark, but I held out and fought thru it...no pain..no gain. Pouch needs to stretch so I can reach the 6 hour interval. I gotta get some sleep..over and out ;)

starting 4 hrs

today i'm starting 4 hr intervals...i hope it goes well...crossing my fingers.

RIP Sassy

Yesterday our dog Sassy was put down. She was almost 14 and in really bad shape. Just the same it's never easy saying goodbye to a pet. She has been in my life for the last 7 yrs and I didn't get to say goodbye. She was a great dog..always keeping me company when Todd was out of town, she'd stay right at my feet. I'm going to miss her.

Other than the sad news everything else seems to be going well. I start 4 hrs tomorrow. I hope I can make it, especially without an episode of gastritis. Wish me luck!

Can't believe it's 2010! Wow..where did the time go. Well I was hoping for a good day, but that didn't happen. I've been in pain all day..I think another case of gastritis..either that or the pouch growing out of control. Either way it hurts and I'm even considering getting some pain meds (which is not like me). Came out to Palm Desert to relax and enjoy some quiet family time. So far I've been in bed. Hoping tomorrow to get over this and enjoy some time with my kids. They came home today after being with their dad this last week. Resolution: to take one day at a time and slow down. My health is more impotant than anything else. Time I statred paying attention to that. May 2010 be filled with love, happiness, laughter & anything else you desire.